The one question l get asked most

This is not going to be easy to answer, because I don't know if it will make sense. The one question I get asked the most is, How did I know I loved her? Trying to think of the best way to answer it, so people understand.

When you are sat there working, coming home, cleaning and cooking, looking after your kids, there comes a time when you have 'your' time, I don't know what everyone else does, but I would put my romantic songs on and think about my dream woman. She was not real. She was all in my head. Like most men and women its your dream and no one can mess it up, he or she is everything you want them to be. Well I did that a lot, almost every day. Soon as I had my time on went the music and out came my dream. But in my mind I knew that if I ever did meet her, she was not going to want me anyway. Plus I was not looking for it and didn't want it, this was my dream and no one and I mean no one could mess it up. Even if I did meet a woman I would run a mile, just too shy of a person. Plus who would want me anyway .

Then one day my kids got me in to online chat. I didn't want to do it. I Wouldn't`t know what to say. But as time went on l got into it. People trying to talk to me, me missing most things as I didn`t know what I was doing, hahahahahahahahaha. One rule I made was to tell people the truth, what ever it was. Then as I talked to people I found just how on my own I was, and to me what a sad life I had, then that would get me all upset. Made me look at myself, l was not a bad guy, so I asked myself, why am l on my own? What's wrong with me? People in chat telling me I was a nice guy. If I was a nice guy and as good as people told me, why was l on my own? Yes like most I got upset and down, felt sorry for myself which I think most do, so then I would go into my world, with my dream woman, I think we all have our dream world. So now you know a bit of how I was feeling at the time.

then came talking to Buttercup. From the moment we talked l just got a feeling like I have never had. This overpowering, warm feeling I didn't know I had, this was something I had never had before with anyone, was this love? I just knew there and then she was the one.

So as time has gone on and we are where we are now, the answer is yes I do love her and more. She's everything that was in my dream and much much more. In fact, she's better than my dream. She is the most wonderful person I have ever met. She's kind, warm, she cares about others, romantic, she's the best, my number one. She's everything to me, and with all that she's beautiful too. To me its more then love, she's part of me, she's my soulmate. The way she makes my feel inside every day, god and she makes me so happy.

The one thing I will never do is let her forget just how wonderful she is, plus every day l will let her know just how much I love her. When she hurts l hurt, l just can`t bear to think of life without her, she's my everything. The one thing l do know is my love for her will just grow and grow, its a love I didn't know, and know I have it with Buttercup, l am never ever ever letting her go.........John