Finding Love Online - Can This Be Real?: Just Thinking

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Just Thinking

Well I just want to try and put what I was feeling. We were on our way home from a 40s room meet. We had a great time and all the people at the meet were wonderful and had such a ball. On our way home Buttercup needed to sleep for a bit, so she pulled over near a cafe so I could have a coffee and she could have a sleep.
It was then I got to thinking about just how much I loved being with her, how happy she makes me.

I can be me and not have to worry about it. She lets me have fun, but it's not just that, she's part of it all too. This is all about how she just makes me feel, all the time. I don't know if everyone has it....But when you can be you....God it feels so good. You don't have to start worrying about 'can I do this' 'can I do that', just to be able to be you. That's what Buttercup does. She lets me be me and it feels so wonderful. Its one of the many things I love about her.

Its times like this I just think of how lucky I am to have someone as special as her. I just didn`t know I could love anyone as much as I love her. I do love her --god knows how much I love her and I think she does too. When how I think I was sitting in the car drinking coffee, with Buttercup asleep and I was happy just to be next to her. I don't care where I am in this world as long as I am with her. I know I will be happy. Plus I will do all I can you make her happy too and I will never stop letting her know how much she is loved.

The one thing I have found with Buttercup, what ever I do for her, it makes me happy to she her happy and to see her smile...God that smile just melts me. To hear her laugh, God and she laughs a lot, just warms my heart. I don`t think I will ever be able to put into words just how much I love her.....But one thing for sure is,I will never ever stop trying to show her..........John

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Some nice things other people have said...

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amazing. inspirational. beautiful. unique. I'm out of words...
write ur book. I'll be the first to buy :) - Marina
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John and Buttercup.. glad things are picking up for the two of you. You both have came such a long way. Love you both, thanks for being there. Love you two... always have.. ladyusa
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I love happy endings and your story certainly has one. I wish you both the best. My husband and I are from different countries and we've been married for the past 15 years. Love can happen when you least expect it :-). I'll have to watch Love Actually. I've been meaning to but never got round to it. - - - I met my best friend online. We've been friends for a long time and have coined a new word for each other -- heartfriends. - - - The internet is a wonderful thing - Audry (AKA Amethyst)
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Good luck! Things will owrk out in the end -- you 2 were meant to be together! - kb
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Sometimes you can fall, but keep your head upright. Your situation reminds me of my sister-in-law Catrin in Canada. For her as German it was all hard in the beginning. But she managed it and is still there. Good luck - Konrad
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i have to say you all look wonderful seems you had a fantastic time food looked great btw LOL hugsssssssssssssssss n xxxxxxxx to you all
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thank you for sharing and making the people even more real i can't wait until i get to meet all these wonderful people in Toronto
xxxx Dianne^ :))
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Hugssss N SMOoooOooCHIES,
Shebs here... NOt SHEB's SHEEBS...lol and a... how come there's not pictures of JOHN wearing the slippers he so loved and violated in unspeakable ways? hm?hm?hm? Just pondering... lol Love you and had a wonderful time it was soooo worth it! Lubs ya both! Shebs
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lololol sorry shebs still dont say it right... just wanted to say what a great time and we need another soon!! btw Twitch and be^Twitched.... love your writings on the site... very nice and good luck to you both love yall.. dwskwared
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I know just how you feel, Buttercup~~it's the way I felt when I met my guy~~Came at a time I wasn't looking for anyone~~and we met in a chat room as well~3 years' ago in March. I knew I loved him~~And his finally being able to call me his girlfriend~and refer to himself as my boyfriend~is a big step for him. It's going a bit slower with us than with you and John (and we're closer to boot!!)~But we're working on it. I wish all the Best for you two~~God Bless.
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awww 'm so glad that you are both happy...buttercup i've never seen my dad this happy in 22 years thank you for making him so happy i love you both love carrie xxxx
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the best thing that ever happened to him, god only knows if we hadnt shown him that chatroom lol
love aaron xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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John, you're a very lucky man. Your blog, and your love for her, is inspiring. - Ali
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Thanks for the kind words Christine - I'm going to put up a link to your blog on mine.
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You two make a very nice couple...I'm so happy for you.
Kathy F.
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Well honeys - you asked me my opinion - you know me - you gonna get an earfull - ROFL..........
What you have found .... is in more ways than one - a miracle - a gift from God...... cherish it and honour it ...... and always know where it came from. Those were not hardships or battles.... those were Gods ways of making you both more sure and more prepared for your walk together in life. And the tears you both cried ..... were what created and moulded the pearls...... the pearls of wisdom. I never doubted that His will would come true.... but if we want to do His will.. we have to follow His time schedule .. not our own. And you guys did so I have no doubt in my mind you will have a stunning future together.... I wish for you ... a blessed future together ..... forever. Anthonette
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aww ... you guys are so inspirational! my boyfriend and i are in a long distance relationship now, we ain't just in a different states. we're in different countries!
anyway, i wish you guys all the best!! *MuWaH* teecee!! - Ninna
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Hi, just checking out your blog. You two look so adorable together =)
I met my boyfriend on the Internet too, we've been together for 4 years now, and next year we're planning to get engaged. So I guess finding love online IS for real. - estalia
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This is an awesome site. I applaud you two, it is good to hear about such a wonderful, successful relationship that began in a way that many people tend to disapprove of--the internet. I have made a few good friends online and it's nice to see another good story come out of cyberspace. - Esther
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Buttercup and John,
A reminder from the Dalai Lama: "Keep in mind that Great love and great achievements in life involve a great amount of risk" (From "Instructions for life")
Hugs, from wysiwyg
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(In response to our writing a book) Hippy Monkey said - That'd be a good book, I would read it! - - - Two lost souls meeting on the internet, separated by an ocean and a shifting political global climate. However, they spend years fighting against the systems of tyranny and cast away their overcome their shackles of oppression to allow their true love to bloom, leading to a long, happy life together. - - - : ) There's your back cover!
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happy belated birthday and this is one helluva blog/life u've got there... =O) - Evil Quava
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